PROLOGUE: THE 1998 JOURNAL: Aimee Gives Stephanie a Journal to Share
** THIS IS THE ACTUAL JOURNAL KEPT BETWEEN MODERN MATERIAL FOUNDER, ANNIE, AND HER FRIEND "STEPHANIE" FROM 1998 to 1999 BEFORE THE FIRST OFFICIAL SUICIDE ATTEMPT.
*** The point of this journal was for Annie "AIMEE" to give "STEPHANIE" a way to express her feelings without always needing to be there when she needed to talk. It allowed Annie to reply when she was able to. In 1999 Annie found police in her bedroom reading one of the journals. The Suicide Letter was addressed to her. Stephanie lived but 2 more years of suicide attempts followed until she found the right support system. These are journal entries, written word for word, between two girls age 19 and 22, were written before either of them really understood what their futures would hold. Today they are still Best Friends, although a term that is hard to use when they have nothing in common but the most emotional journey two friends can share: Choosing Life or Choosing Death.
November 18, 1998
The idea of this gift is that it shall become a journal of friendship between the two of us. I think that it will allow the two of us to become closer, and open up a little more to each other. The words contained in this book will not go beyond our own minds. It will be a book of secrets, stories, feelings and everything else our hearts desire. It may be difficult to keep up and write all of the time, but if we find a minute of our time, jus to say hello, I think it will be able to change the way we see things and allow us to let eacother know the other cares and that we are always here for each other.